When I was just 4 years old, I started school, along with other children I didn't know. It was scary on the first day, but it got better as the days went by. There was a boy in my class who I straight away loved! I was only 4 years old and I had found the one I wanted to be with forever!
I had kept my crush on him a secret, as I didn't want him to find out. Day after day, week after week, month after month, and year after year, I had this one big crush on him! I loved him more and more as the time went by. I don't know why he was this attractive, whenever I looked into his eyes I saw love. Then when I was about 10 years old, my friends started to fancy him.
They told me about how much they loved him, but they didn't know I had a crush on him since I was four, this crush was still a secret. Then at the end of Year 6 (the last year at primary school) it was time to decide what Secondary School we wanted to attend. Four schools had accepted me, and my crush was going to goto one of them. I begged and begged my mum to goto that school, and finally, I did.
The first day of Secondary School was also scary as the first day of Primary. I didn't know anyone except for my crush, two of his mates, and only one of mine. I started to make friends quickly, and then me and my crush got put into two different classes! I couldn't believe this! I weren't in the same class as him! I guess it was a sign of moving on, because this relationship wasn't getting us anywhere.
I began to see less of him, and more boys started to take his place. At first I thought I wasn't doing the right thing by trying to forget him, but I knew it was for the best. I then started going out with them other boys, and hardly ever spoke to the boy I had loved since I was 4. Now I am still in that situation, when I hardly see him, and i am fancying other boys.
But whenever I walk passed him, look at him, think of him, I remember the times when I used to love him. He was my first love, and, although we are apart, we are together in my memory of 7 years of loving him, and we are together in my heart.
Someone who changed my life
Phill and I met in the mid month of May last year. He is an incredible guy. Nicest and sweetest guy ever. I've never had a serious relationship before. I had a very low self-esteem. Always belittled myself. I Thought I would never have a boyfriend like every body does because I was told by my friends and my sister that I was chubby and ugly . I was extremely shy.
One day he came into my life and changed the way I think and see myself. We've been together for almost a year now. We've been through so much dramas. But in the end everything turned out alright. All these times we've been together. He has taught me to be patient with myself and others. He makes me feel beautiful. Thanks to him I'm more open up now.
I believe in myself and am very confidence. He has shown me a different world. A world I thought I would never have. A world that fill with love and warmth. He cares for me and makes me feel special. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, give him the most beautiful children ever.
I want the whole world to know that I love my baby, and no matter what happens in the future, I will always be there by his side, and I know he will stand by me too. I know there are many unexpected things that will stand in our ways in the days to come. But with this love that's so true, I know we will overcome any anything. Baby if you read this, I want you to know that I love you so very very much more than you'll ever know. I feel the three words "I love you", cannot express the feelings of my heart for you.
I know our love will never fade away with time. Time can only prove to you how much you mean to me. I really want you to know just how special you've become as I've watched my feelings grow days by days. I am better of knowing the girl that you have shown me. So thank you for changing my life and for being a wonderful boyfriend.
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